Second Thoughts

So I've taken the last week and a half off of freelance work for the most part...and it was really nice. I got to come home from work and really be home. I got things done around the house and in the yard. I actually got a sunburn from working outside all day Saturday. I really enjoyed it. But I still didn't like work. Hopefully this just means that I will be even happier when I make the switch entirely, not that I don't want to make it.

Then there's the thought of OUR future. Joe hates his job, hates it, wants to move on very badly. I can't think about switching over while he's in transition too. Plus, I found a few jobs to apply for that would allow me to make more money and give him more flexibility in finding what he really wants to do, and even going back to school.
Can I endure a few more years of corporate life to allow my husband to be happy? Definitely. Will he let me and take advantage of it? That I don't know.

So here I am, only a short while into this adventure, and already wondering what I should really be doing. Can I see myself as the next Communications Manager of the Toledo Port Authority? Yes, I think I can do it, I think I have the skills if not the confidence immediately. But do I want to do it? I don't know.

And if I do continue the corporate route for a while longer, do I want to keep working when I get home still? No, I don't think I do. But do I leave my long-term clients hanging and refuse new ones? That won't be good for the future?

Ugh. Too many questions and not enough answers.